i am considering on buying a new iPhone..
but its price did really stunned me..
 it cost about Rm 2000++
that takes me 3 months to earn that much of money..

its been a few month..
i was longed to have a iPhone..
it is cool..
yet sytlish..
however..its price is the coolest..

 sometimes..
i am so envy to see other people using it..
i wished to have one too..
but..
i cant afford it..
it cost me too much..

maybe AINO is more than enough for me..

Monday was the best and the luckiest day among the seven day i experience through my life since the first time i started my job..

i appreciate these 86400 seconds...
as the reasons..
ther is no further explaination..
just..
working on monday aint that sucks compared to sunday..
workers and 'boss' become more friendly during monday..
even job turns to be easier..

the best thing is..
i can be myself and dont have to act so hypocrite..

today..
i enjoyed my job so much..
i loved serving cutomers..
even though some of them might be very picky..
they turned my job to be so challenging..

tonight..
things doesnt turn out to be what i wish to...
i had my plan..
but everything ruined..
gan liyi..
i thought there was going to be a nice conversation tonight...
just between u and me..
but..
the crowded situation doesnt allow me to do so..

sorry..to behave so passive tonight..
i didnt know what to say..
but i did enjoyed your friends' conversation..
hope u wont mind..
i wish to have the second chance...

after knowing you...
i realise...
life should be happy and enjoyable..
eventhough u work so much..
yet..
u seems to enjoy it..
thats the great thing i learned within you..
maybe i should learned to be more independent..
just like u..

u are so impressive..
to find jobs yourself..
travelling yourself..
without burdening anyone..
your identity as a 'girl' really amaze me..

one more thing that i had realise is..
i aint independent enough to be a real man..
thought that i am already prefect enough to gain experience surviving in a boarding school..
independent enough..
but i was wrong..
i am weak compared to other peers like me..
i have to make a change...

yesterday,
i was sent out to give away those pamplets.
life aint easy...
sun shined so bright..
weather yet hot..
baking all the residents in town..
no one would dared walking around under the sun without shelter..

i was the selected guy..
who had been chose to give away pamplets..
my friend and i..
the bravest guy.
succeed to travel around the town without sneaking away from our damn holy mr sun..

at the hottest moment...
we finally finished our job...

things always happened so unpredictably..
again..
when the hottest moment..
four person included me was sent by van to give out the pamplets..
waaa..
my eyes once popped out to have see soo much pamplets..
i wished so much to burn those papers...

our van was heading to bukit pasir..
there are a lots foreign workers..
they live and work there..
ouch..
at here..
we began our job..

we been to every part of the area there where those workers live..
and we then entered their house..
to give em those pamplets..
waaa..no wonder...
so much foreign worker came to our shop..

haiz..
these world is such big..
through this day..
i realize that..
there are still a lot people out there..
who lived in such terrible condition..
these is what we call as fate..

we should thanks to god..
for loving us so much..
letting us live in such comfortable and luxury situation..

what is so wrong to be born as a poor people..
as least we dont have to suffer so much like those foreign workers had experience before..
they have to leave their family at such a small age..
to work in other countries and live independently...

this is what i did learned from my job..
even though the job was tough..
but at least..
it did really gave me a valuable lesson..
which i can applied it in my life...
and to share with other people...
who is still not satisfy with their life..

i am already turn 18 years this year..
Secondary schooling had already finished..
celebrated by spm test..

17 years i had been survived in this world..
and i could see..
The moment of my life in hostel was the most meaningful yet the best part of my life..
I realize..my dad's decision sending me to a boarding school was no wrong..
In that school..i experienced every sad,exciting,unforgetable,dissappointed,happy,enjoyable moment in my life...
i had been through various type of activities that others had wouldnt done it before..
Im glad to move there..
As that was the place where i started to learn every each principle that i had applied in my life till now..
That school was just like a TICKET..
which allowed me to continue living my life..
and lead me to a better place...place to gain knowledge...
now..i got no worry with my life..

Sometimes,i did thought back about the past..
i am a type of person who are not willing to study too much..synonym as lazy..
lazy to study..
me myself might be damaged if i werent not send to mjsc terendak...

at here too, i would like to thanks my buddies and my friends who once study in the same college with me..
Their exist had already left a deep mark in my heart..
i would not forget the moment when we hanging out together,advice and comfort each other when one of us are in trouble..
For 5 years,finally i did knew how does friendship actually means...not by only spelling it out loud..

hostel life is just like a cycle..
every each form we had been through have its own differences..
just like..
when we were in form 1,we were bullied by the senior so badly..
they 'pau' our food, ask us to wash and iron clothes for them..
there was no such thing like '..as a token of appreciation..'
u should never hope for a reward from them even though u did really help them a lot..
it was so funny to think back about the thing that we had done to them..
At that time,when we felt dissatisfied with a senior, we will curse them so badly..
From that time, we learned how to cuss and so then...
everyday we will split out dirty and impolite words in every of our dialogue even though we never meant to..

2009 was the last year for us..
We grew to be a form 5 student..
And at this age, people started to fight for the 'otai' title..
that means everyone included me started to be bad..
we treated our juniors so cruelly..just like how the past seniors had treated us before..
ACtually,we were never meant to take revenge..
just when sometimes, tonnes of homework and troubles presurring us..
made us so tension forcing us to release it on the juniors..
Please dont get wrong..
till now..i had never bashed any junior before..
all they had to do is just settle my clothes that i had to wear next day..

my fellow friends..
i respect them..
sometimes..
they sacrificed themselves to give the juniors some lessons...
they waste their time and energy to educate those juniors to be a good person when they grew up..
stubborn juniors always make us screwed up..
when we got no choice,we will used violence..
The intention is not to harm them but to teach them..
As the result,some of them really changed..
they turned to be more hardworking and polite..
a lot people had very bad impression on us..
that is because they don't understand the beyond of the fact..

Money is not everything...
Everything is not money...
Sometimes,we should live our life in a different way...
As life is not all about money...
Life should be enjoyable as we only go through it once...
And in our life..
We only have one chance to decide what course are we taking and what we are going to be when we get older...
Hence..
Appreciate your very one chance and choose the course that u think is the most interesting for u..
U must know...
Just like the poem wrote by William Shakespeare..
"The Road Not Taken"
Once we have decide our choice,there is no way for turning back..
Just like the course u are going to take...
Choose the course that suits u the most as u have to carry it along through ur life..
As..it will then decide what u are going to be when u grow older..

U might not want to waste ur precious time and money to pay for the course that u think u would give it up..
Sometimes,it takes u a few year to study a course..
Yet,u decide to change another course as u are already bored with it..
Dont u think it is such a waste of time and money..
The fees for the college and university aint so cheap...

Yeah, a lot of people wish to have a high-salary job..
Hence,they study it even they realise that they dont like it..
Their only wish is to earn a lot of money and to lead a comfortable life..
However,every each of their action needs a big sacrifice..
They did lost the most enjoyable moment in their life..
For a man..
They had to work day and night..
And work for their rest of life...
if they think during the moment of working is the scariest nightmare for them...
Their life would be unhappy and dim...
Even though they gain lots of money..

Thus..
Job is part of our life..
Choose it based on ur interest..
But not by other motive..
Job is to enjoy..
Not to suffer..