Inspired by micheal jackson 's song..
man in the mirror..
to change myself.
starts with the man in the mirror.
i look into myself.
think of every single possibilities that i would have make.
try to be myself.
but throw all the bady away.
egoness.
proud esteem..
and fake macho..
talk less but more action..
gain my self esteem.
treat everyone surround me good.
and stop envying the others.
the road ahead might be still a far long way to go.
and im not going to waste it up with shame and insulation.
i need a change.
to make the world a better place.
theres no way others can help me and i am the only exception.
for the sake of my future.
it is worthful.

How tired it was i might not able to imagine.
Public speaking?
Haha.such a funny world.
I had never expected that public speaking had become a small part of my life.
Ya.at least for a tiny little experience,even though i won nothing.

There was an incessantly heavy downpour early in the morning today.
Quite troublesome. My dad had to sent me to school.
Time passed especially fast in this morning.
My mind was full with fear and anxiety.
The teachers was about to send us to High School for the competition,
but,
i had not really ready for anything yet.
Imagine,
How could u ever manage to memorize such a long script in one days time?!
I had to admit. It was an impossible request for me.

To shorten the story,
i was in the hall waiting for my turn.
Actually it sounds more to a class.
Woah..
My heart pounded very fast and it kept on increasing every seconds ticked to my turn.
Thanks to Carlie and Hong Wee.
Both of these friends of mine, kept supporting me and even calm me down when i was getting nervous.

However, i had to admit, things did not went as smooth as i had planned.
My body betrayed me the most.
It kept on shaking from the beginning to the end.
God. How i hoped that there would be a pill for me to swallowed if it can stop my this behavior right at that time.

OK.everything was done and i can finally take some rest and threw all my burdens away.
Hm. The result was out for a short while later.
As i had expected, i had failed to book a place for the first three winner.
Ya.perhaps i should work harder next time.
Not going to elaborate much detail and information.
With that I thank you.LOL.

life fill with black and white is ain't easy to get through.
life with a limit is even harder for me.
i am seventeen.two months left to eighteen.
but i am losing the way i live my life.
i lost my freedom.
i miss the way i survived in past five years.
when i was not under controlled.
and was allowed to do whatever i wanted to.